Cancer – not the post I want to make

Never thought I would be writing about cancer or dealing with it as it effects my family. I hope I won’t be writing about this for long and if so, it’s more about my dad doing well.  

Since my dad got sick, I’ve been researching foods that help fight cancer.  Foods like broccoli, pomegranate, kale, acia berries, blueberries, etc. Some call them “super foods”. Once he gets better, he wants to try smoothies with these super foods and eat better, overall.  I want to help him and try to eat better as well. 

Today, I’m in the hospital with him.  He’s napping and it’s the last day of his 7-day chemotherapy treatment. His white blood cells, red blood cells and platelets are all mostly gone – both the cancerous kind and the good ones. That’s what chemo is supposed to do.  

Last night got a little scary. He got a nosebleed that wouldn’t stop.  For three hours he went through tissues and gauze. I just stood there, shocked, as doctors and nurses rushed to get him a transfusion of platelets and contemplate if surgery was necessary.  Luckily, it wasn’t.

Now, at 10 a.m. the following day and his nosebleed appears to be almost gone. Phew! I can’t tell you how scared and worried I was. I know I’m supposed to be strong and brave and positive and all those things everyone is telling me to be, but I can’t help but get scared. This is SCARY!  Watching someone you care about battle cancer is insanely scary!  Ok, I need to breathe.  I think a minute of panic is totally acceptable, right?

They say it’s just uphill for him now. The chemo is finished and his blood counts will start to rise and make him feel better. Looking forward to him getting well. Send your prayers!